Senin, 26 April 2004

TIARA MENARI

Masih inget proyek game RPG Indonesia yang lagu2nya lagi gue garap? Akhirnya lagu pertempuran dari proyek ini udah kelar. Walaupun baru separuhnya, tapi gue seneng banget. Sebenernya lagu battle yang gue kasih judul 'Tiara Menari' ini udah kelar pertengahan bulan Maret tahun ini, tapi tiba2 aja bulan ini gue dapet inspirasi luar biasa yang membuat gue merombak total instrumen di lagu itu.

Mendobrak tradisi musik peperangan yang udah ada, biasanya musik2 seperti itu kental dengan unsur 'marching' atau nada2 yang bersemangat, atau dimainkan dalam tempo cepat. Nah, gue coba menerapkan konsep lain ke dalam 'Tiara Menari'. Karena musik ini diperuntukkan untuk game Indonesia, gue berusaha memasukkan sedikit sentuhan musik tradisional ke dalamnya. What's more? Bukan berarti lagu battle ini nggak ada unsur semangatnya lho! Di dalamnya, ada semangat...harapan...dan cinta...

Pada penasaran kan? Hmmm, sabar ya, karena begitu gamenya kelar, gue bakal keluarin soundtracknya!!!

PS: Terima kasih + peluk cium untuk yang 'disana', yang udah ngasih inspirasi dalam pembuatan lagu ini. "XOXO"

RAMA SAYS: 09:01 WIB

TO MS. I: WAHITA, YOU 'STAY AWAY'!!!

OK, Ms. I, or I'll call you, Ms. Lufia! Sejak aura gue meningkat kali ini gue coba untuk ngomong langsung ke elo. Wahita, malaikat manisku, tolong kasih kesempatan sekaliiiiiiiiiii ajah, gue mau ngomong langsung ama si ibu peri kecil mungil berisik itu...!

Lufia: "Gara2 ulah elo, gue jadi makin sayang sama elo...!"
Aurora: "STOP! Stop bikin gue merah padam!!!"

Lufia: "Coba ulangi apa yang Mr. A bilang? Ayo dong?"
Aurora: "TANYA: Apa kamu bener2 mencintai Ms. Lufia? JAWAB: Gue sayang banget sama dia... P-U-A-S-?-!"

Lufia: "Emangnya rencana jangka panjang elo apaan seeh!?"
Aurora: "*whisper...whisper...whisper*"

Lufia: "Waduh, padahal yang bilang 'sayang' itu baru gue, yang jelas2 nggak ada hubungannya sama elo."
Aurora: "Lufia kecil mungil berisik, kata2 itu yang paling bisa bikin gue jatuh terduduk lemah lunglai...! Pswswsw, itu rahasia umum lho!"

Lufia: "Terusnya gue harus gimana?"
Aurora: "Kalau bisa sekarang elo jadi SUPER! Bukan Supermi atau Supergirl, tapi super feminin dan dewasa. Jangan grabak-grubuk kayak biasanya, jangan pengen ngeluarin apa yang seharusnya nggak dipaksa keluar kayak biasanya, jangan tunjukin rasa penasaran n' kebelet elo yang kayak biasanya. Nah inget tiga point itu, eh tapi sebenernya gue PALING SUKA ama cewek yang kayak gitu tuh (hilangkan kata JANGAN di ketiga point itu), hihihi! *giggle*

Lufia: "Akhirnya elo udah '$%^' duluan kan? Selamat ya!"
Aurora: "Itu masih KURANG! Buka http://www.cocoebiz.com dan pesenin gue STAR OCEAN SOUNDTRACK!!! *pasang tampang $$$*

Lufia: "Ada pesan untuk 'yang disana'? Sayang ya elo nggak bisa ajak dia pergi!"
Aurora: "Iya, sayang banget...padahal gue pengen banget bisa nonton konser itu berduaan aja sama dia (kayak pangeran dan puteri). Masalahnya gue harus mondar-mandir dan kalau lagi buat lagu elo pasti tau, gue bakal berjam-jam duduk diem di depan PC dan gue nggak mau kalau 'yang disana' ngerasa dicuekin. Mmm, please take care of her for me, will you?"

 Lufia: "Tolong bikin Mr. A jadi BLAHBLAHBLAH (jadi begini, jadi begitu)."
Aurora: "Bukannya gue nggak mau, tapi kita harus liat2 porsinya. Gue pikir yang gue lakuin itu udah cukup. Selanjutnya, lakukan itu lewat getaran hati elo sendiri dan bikin dia mabuk kepayang, tapi inget: JANGAN grabak-grubuk, penasaran, dan KE...BE...LET, okay (tapi boleh untuk gue)?

RAMA SAYS: 07:21 WIB 

Sabtu, 24 April 2004

SELAMAT JALAN SUHU: RAMA'S AURA POWER UP! *70%*

Hujan turun deras banget sore ini, menghantar kepergian suhu gue beristirahat dengan tenang. Di bawah guyuran hujan, gue berdiri memusatkan seluruh tenaga untuk wasiat terakhir beliau: "I'll give you 30% of my aura strength, Rama... Please use it to help people, and protect someone you love..." Suhu, terima kasih banyak. Saya mohon maaf karena beberapa minggu yang lalu memutuskan untuk keluar dari perguruan, tapi saya akan berusaha menjalankan amanat ini dengan baik. Suhu akan tetap hidup dalam aura saya, dan semoga 30% itu bisa saya gunakan dengan baik...

Rama has become stronger. No tears, but a light of spirit to go on...

RAMA SAYS: 17:42 WIB

Senin, 19 April 2004

SALAH MINUM

Ada kejadian malu2in hari ini. Habis pulang dari kampus dan kepanasan, tempat pertama yang paling pertama gue singgahi adalah KULKAS di rumah. Buru2 gue ambil sebotol minuman dingin dari dalamnya, seperti biasa kalau gue kepanasan suka minum air mineral atau Kratingdaeng atau M-150. Glek...glek...Rama yang hampir kepanggang itu menenggak isi botol minuman tanpa tau minuman apa yang lagi diminum. Setelah selesai dan diam beberapa saat...LHO!?!?!?

Hampir lima kali gue bolak-balik WC gara2 minuman itu. Setelah sadar, ternyata bukan Kratingdaeng atau M-150 yang gue minum, tapi Kiranti! Kiranti, you know! I'ts my mother's!!! Gile kali ye!!! Masa gue minum obat menstruasi!?!?!? Akhirnya sakit perut dan mules2 reda sekitar jam tiga sore ini. Ampun deh...!

rama says: 17:28 wib

MY 'TIARA' IN MY 'CD PLAYER'...

Udah tau cover CD yang gue pajang ini? Reviewnya juga ada di bagian review musik game. Final Fantasy - The Black Mages... Soundtrack yang berisi gubahan ulang lagu2 battle Final Fantasy yang dimainkan ulang dalam versi 'Black Music' alias metal itu bener2 jadi sumber semangat gue tahun ini. Sejak pertama kali beli, alunan melodi yang variatif dan gitar listrik yang bersemangat selalu membuat gue bertenaga waktu ngetik atau ngerjain tugas2 kampus. Meskipun kadang gue juga suka 'goyang' gara2 enerjiknya isi album ini, gue nggak pernah ngerasa capek. Maybe, because I love Final Fantasy so much... Kadang2 gue juga ngebandingin lagu2 yang ada di album ini dengan versi asli di gamenya...ASYIK!

Kalau gue boleh bilang, album ini adalah 'Tiara'-nya musik gue! Kalau gue pernah terpesona sama progressive-rock gubahan Motoi Sakuraba, gue juga terpesona sama yang satu ini. 10 track yang ada di dalamnya...gue bener2 seperti di-boost up, persis seperti......Tiara!

RAMA SAYS: 14:06 WIB

Minggu, 18 April 2004

HI, FINALLY I'VE FOUND YOU: MY LOST 'MAILMATE'!!!

"Everyone...! Let me introduce...: Ms. E-MAIL GIRL!!! The best e-mail sender ever!!!"

Hmmm, frase di atas nggak perlu dipahami. Gue cuma pengen memberi perumpamaan doang. Foto yang gue pajang di atas adalah orang yang baru2 ini mulai e-mail2an sama gue. Setelah gue nggak lagi berhubungan dengan Femmy, gue hampir nggak pernah nulis/baca e-mail panjang. Boro2, rata2 temen2 udah pada pusing baca e-mail gue yang emang panjang kayak kereta api. But, I found something different in her...something that has been away from me...something that I really like... Terus gue berusaha mengingat, dan akhirnya gue baru sadar kalau gue udah lama nggak ngerasa 'kangen' baca tulis e-mail panjang. Gue masih inget rekor terbesar gue nulis e-mail teks tanpa attachment sampai 50 KB. Akankah sejarah itu terulang lagi? Gue nggak tau. Yang jelas, gue suka banget sama e-mail panjang perdananya. Yang membuat gue tambah seneng adalah ketika dia minta gue untuk tulis e-mail panjang...sesuatu yang pernah 'hilang' dari gue...

Thank you very much,  my 'mailmate'...

RAMA SAYS: 21:55 WIB

REUNION: RAMA & BAGAS JOIN FORCES!!!

Siapa lagi nih? Bagas, dia itu salah satu sohib gue waktu SMP yang baru2 ini nyelesein sekolah musiknya di Amerika. Alhasil, kita ketemuan dan saling bagi2 cerita. Cowok 'gondrong' yang jago main gitar dan suka musik Jazz ini berniat membantu gue dalam proyek pembuatan musik game yang sekarang lagi gue garap. Sekalian reuni, Bagas mengajak gue menginap di rumahnya (kemarin) dan gue sempet belajar sedikit teknik dasar bermain musik. Yes, we wish to do something new to our country's music!

Hari ini gue juga dikenalin sama Ria, cewek 'kece' nan 'funky' yang juga temen akrab Bagas. Mereka berdua ikut bertandang ke rumah gue. Ria ya? Komentar gue, anaknya FANGKEH abis, persis kayak Tiara! Hey girl, if you happen to read this, you should thank me as I have put your name into an artist's diary...hahaha!!!

RAMA SAYS: 15:14 WIB

Kamis, 15 April 2004

REVIVAL: THANKS, ANGELINE...

Alhamdulillah! Setelah beberapa lama, akhirnya kita baikan juga! It was a little fight though, but right now we're fine... Makasih juga buat Fitri dan Gia yang udah ngasih nasehat... Sekarang Angeline dan gue udah gencatan senjata... Meskipun kita berdua itu sama2 bad-temper, tapi gue lega karena malem ini kita bisa nyadar kesalahan masing2.

You're so sweet, Angeline... Thanks for being one of my music mates... Elo pasti tau kalau gue selalu mikirin kesalahan yang gue perbuat, elo pasti tau kan...?

Yeah, it's over...and we'll again work together, AS ONE TEAM!

Besok itu ULTAH elo kan? "Happy birthday..." Sekarang umur elo ninggalin gue...

RAMA SAYS: 20:37 WIB

Rabu, 14 April 2004

ARTIKEL SELESAI, GAJIAN!!!

Alhamdulillah... Habis shalat tahajud malam ini, gue nyelesein paragraf terakhir dari artikel gue. Wah, nggak etis sih kalo gue kasih tau duluan, ntar pembaca Hot Game jadi tau duluan dong! Tapi gpp! Cuma judulnya aja kan? Gue nulis tentang KOJI KONDO, komposer musik game yang nulis lagu untuk game tukang ledeng bersaudara, 'Mario Brothers'. Pada penasaran kan!?!?

Mbak Irma, MISSION COMPLETE! Hari ini artikelnya langsung saya kirim ke redaksi. Habis itu......tinggal nunggu Pak Pos dan weselnya, hehehe...!

"Makasih buat KYA, my beloved cat that keeps me accompanied. Makasih juga buat Yovita yang udah telfon kasih semangat. Sorry, gue nggak sengaja dial nomor telfon elo, nggak nyangka aja elo masih di alam sadar..."

Hmmm, there are still several hours before the dawn gets here. Oh, I am exhausted as well... I gotta get a catnap anyway... Bye, everyone...

RAMA SAYS: 02:19 WIB

Selasa, 13 April 2004

DEAR FRIEND...OR SHOULD I SAY: THE OLD QUEEN OF MY PAST HEART...

Kebayang nggak sih gimana rasanya ketemu temen lama yang udah hampir 10 tahun nggak ketemu? Apalagi dulunya dia itu pernah jadi orang paling berkesan di hati, tapi karena sebuah kejadian 'childish', kita jadi bertengkar dan nggak pernah lagi berhubungan. Sedih? Sudah barang tentu! Tapi, gimana kalau 10 tahun kemudian kita coba telfon dan 'say hello', kira2 gimana reaksinya ya? Well, Rama proudly presents one of his memorial friends, Ms. Wide Oktorina!!! *waduh, gue salah tulis nggak ya?*

Waktu itu (tahun 1995), gue dan Wide sering pulang bareng. Cewek yang lahir bulan Oktober 1982 ini emang beda kelas sama gue, tapi biasanya dia ngajak pulang bareng sebelum jam pelajaran terakhir. Emang sih, kebanyakan dari temen2nya itu cewek, tapi gue nggak begitu peduli, as they're such a nice companion. Gue malu nyeritainnya, tapi yang jelas, dia itu, Wide, adalah cewek pertama yang gue taksir sejak gue pertama kali masuk SMP. Gue ngak mau tulis kenapa, soalnya, if she happens to read this, gue nggak mau dia G.R dan gue jadi bahan ketawaan.

Sayang, gara2 tingkah gue yang kekanak-kanakan waktu itu, atau entah apa sebabnya, gue dan Wide jadi jauh. Nggak sampai disitu, Wide bahkan nggak pernah lagi mau ngobrol atau berhubungan sama gue, and there was the time Rama had his tears running down his cheek. *BEEP! TERLALU MELANKOLIS! STOP!* I've tried to contact her through my best friends. Ada Rhismal, sohib sejati gue yang selalu menghibur dengan candaannya, atau si Lutfy yang gue tugasin untuk...mencuri rekam suara Wide lewat telfon. Oh my, how could I be so crazy then...! That was it, and I insistly had to close that chapter. Under the light of gloomy hope, little Rama dropped his pen on top of his heart, wishing the next chapter would be better with her...someday... *nangis*

-Nine years have passed, anyway...-

Hari ini gue kutak-katik diary dan nemuin catatan itu, termasuk nomor telfon Wide (Nggak boleh minta!), jadi kepikiran pengen coba telfon, tapi ya itu tadi. The last incompleted chapter itu bikin gue ragu2. Ntar malah gue yang disemprot lagi kayak di sinetron. But the gloomy hope gave me its true light, karena akhirnya gue telfon juga dan...we are both happy!!!

Hmmm, si 'PIPI TEMBEM' yang baru aja lulus kuliah dan dapet kerja itu...(Amin! Amin, ya Allah!)...nggak banyak berubah.

Wide...gue seneng bisa nyambung lagi silaturahmi yang keputus, sekaligus gue juga seneng karena bisa...BEEP, SENSOR!!! Hmmm, bisa2 gue telfon semua temen lama gue yang ada di diary nih!

So, this is for all of us. It's nice to have such a good friends. No matter what we did, the memory would always remember and be our part. It's beautiful, isn't it?

The last one: HAAH!! What the hell I just wrote! I normally do not like this, anyway. Tapi emang dasarnya gue seneng, mau gimana lagi!?!? Itung2 buat ngilangin BT-nya pembaca yang beberapa bulan ini cuma nemuin cerita sedih dari diary online gue. Ya udah, gue mau bersih2 rumah dulu! *nggelinding, guling2 sampe sakit perut*

RAMA SAYS: 17:52 WIB

Senin, 12 April 2004

WINAMP v5: IF YOUR EARS AND EYES ARE LOOKING FOR A PERFECT COMPANION

Siapa sih yang nggak kenal Winamp? Player multimedia freeware yang user-friendly dan memiliki banyak dukungan file format audio/video itu kini telah meningkatkan kualitasnya lewat versi terbaru, Winamp 5. Versi ini sekaligus menjawab kegagalan Winamp 3 di pasaran. Yang paling menarik adalah: this software is freeware! Nggak perlu ngeluarin duit sepeserpun untuk menikmati semua file multimediamu!!!

Selain bisa dipakai untuk memutar file audio dan video, Winamp 5 juga menyediakan fasilitas untuk CD Burning, feature baru yang belum pernah ada di versi sebelumnya. Kita juga dapat mengubah track Audio-CD menjadi WAV (untuk format MP3 harus membayar, upgrade ke Winamp 5 Pro). Dukungan terhadap skins dan plugins? Jangan khawatir! Selain skin baru yang seperti di jepretan screenshot di atas, kita masih tetap dapat memakai skins dan plugins dari Winamp versi 2 dan 3. Untuk masalah asosiasi file (file audio/video yang dibuka dengan Winamp), software ini telah menyediakan pilihan baru, yaitu apakah kita ingin membuka file audio saja, video saja, atau semuanya, atau tidak sama sekali.

Kalau dilihat dari interface, Winamp 5 terlihat lebih mewah, itu dapat dirasakan dalam skin Winamp modern yang terpasang otomatis begitu kita install/upgrade. Kalau kalian lebih suka tampilan klasik, bisa langsung diubah ke bentuk Winamp 2 atau 3.

Yang terakhir adalah feature spesial Winamp 5! Setelah download beberapa tambahan item, kita bisa mengubah Winamp menjadi SHADOW MODE (transparan), atau mengubah Winamp menjadi Winamp terkecil di dunia. So, what are you waiting for? GET IT AND BRING YOUR MULTIMEDIA TO ITS NEW WORLD!!!

http://www.winamp.com

RAMA SAYS: 01:02 WIB

Minggu, 11 April 2004

WAHITA'S REPORT: RAMA'S PERSONALITY

I am Wahita. This is the complete information about Rama's personality. Please examine...

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Wahita:I am sorry. I didn't want to say anything until I was sure. I was on a secret mission by orders of Rama's Heart to monitor Rama. He ordered me to determine whether Rama would be a
threat to the world or not. 'The owner of Life'... That is what the Rama's Heart calls Rama...

[Wahita flashes back to a conversation with Rama's Heart while she was in heaven just days before.]

Rama's Heart:This is your conclusion...?

Wahita:Yes, your Majesty. This is the answer that I chose myself.

Rama's Heart:You think you can do it?

Wahita:Yes. Humans have the potential. Managers are no longer needed.

Rama's Heart:So, how about him?

Wahita:Yes, as you say your Majesty, if Rama is...

Rama's Heart:Then I leave it up to you... I atone for my crime by doing so...

[Wahita also thinks back to a conversation with Angel A and Angel B in heaven.]

Wahita:The long awaited man of god, who will take the people born in this world with him to a new horizon. Such is the destiny of the 'Owner of Life'. That is what the Rama's Heart called Rama... He didn't tell me why he called Rama that though...

Angel B:Who the heck is he?

Wahita:He is Rama. But he is also the one who... destroyed all his previous girlfriends' love, caused them serious injury, sank his parent's memory of having a good son, killed his friends' trust... ...Need I continue further? He is... ...Dark Aurora.

Angel B:What did you say!? Dark Aurora!?

Angel A:What do you mean?

Wahita:He... Rama that is, has Disassociative Identity Disorder... Also known more commonly as multiple personalities.

Angel A:D...disas...?

Wahita:Disassociative Identity Disorder... or multiple personalities. It is a mental disorder where a person has multiple personalities.

Angel B:That can't be real...

Wahita:Oh, but it is very real! Rama is living proof of it. I have been watching over Rama, who has a destroyer personality within him named 'Dark Aurora'. In the beginning he was stable... His disassociation did not occur at all while he lived in his dorm for those 13 years. But then,
after his happiness was disturbed, things changed. Little by little, the number of incidents of his disassociation and their length began to increase. And then at the top of his confusion, a complete manifestation of Dark Aurora occured.

Angel B:What brought it about? He was fine when he was in his dormitory, right?

Wahita:My guess is that... the appearance of Femmy affected Rama somehow. She has engraved an unforgettable pain upon Rama's feeling. This was the worst experience, and evil took this chance to take Rama...

Angel A:For what purpose?

Wahita:To destroy God... That is what evil was saying... That is all I know... Although there might be more to it... But one thing is certain... Femmy was encouraging the manifestation of Dark Aurora, but evil did not hav adequate control over Rama.

Angel B:In other words, it was too much for Rama to handle?

Wahita:Yes.

Angel B:What an extraordinary person!

Angel A:You said, 'That's all you know, although there might be more to it. What did you mean
by that?

Wahita:I shall go on to explain that now. Actually, that is the most important point.

[Wahita flashes back to the day before when She was in the darkly lit room with Dark Aurora trapped. This place is Rama's heart.]

Wahita:...There is nothing you can do.

Dark Aurora:You understand well. Just as I expected, Wahita, ... or was it 'cuty angel'?

Wahita:I have been wanting to meet you, Dark Aurora. I wanted to talk to you. I guess it is all due to this subconscious which cuts the nerve connections. Anyway, what is Rama doing as of now?

Dark Aurora:Rama? Which Rama do you mean?

Wahita:Is there more than one?

Dark Aurora:...

Wahita:Dark Aurora?

Dark Aurora:The one you call Rama is asleep.

Wahita:Sleeping?

Dark Aurora:When I awake, he sleeps. That is why he has no memory of what I do.

Wahita:Why does he not know?

Dark Aurora:It's obvious. He is my subordinate. He cannot peer into my memories. He should not in actuality, even exist. His smile created his personality. Rama is a tenant in the room of cowardice...

Wahita:His smile?

Dark Aurora:In order to hide his sadness and pain, within the reason of helping others under the name of God, and being called 'a nice person'. He sealed up my personality in the deepest recesses of my consciousness. Through some inexplicable reason, that was when the present Rama was born.

Wahita:When you said cowardice, what did you mean?

Dark Aurora:...Why ask about him? You think you can do something?

Wahita:It is rare to be able to talk to a real schizophrenic. As an angel, I am extremely
intrigued.

Dark Aurora:With friends like you... eh, angel? I like you, Wahita. But, he is insignificant. After all, he is just a failure. A coward like him does not deserve to be 'Rama's existence'. A pathetic one who has always fled from reality. He never did one thing against me when I control him. A coward who refuses to live. He should've been erased. But he continues to exist! Why won't he disappear? Dammit... it makes my skin crawl just being in the same body
as him.

Wahita:Let us change the subject. I would like to know how and why your personalities were split. Since you are the one in control, I would assume you would know the story. Normally, personalities do not split as they did with you. Unless there was some sort of past trauma.

Dark Aurora:You want to talk about my memories? Don't misunderstand. I haven't given you the right to question me. Just because I'm held down by this subconscious, don't push your luck. If I really wanted to, I could break the restraints and crush you. Don't you forget it.

Wahita:Then why not do it?

Dark Aurora:...

Wahita:Shall I tell you why? You do not have complete control over Rama do you? Your control of him is incomplete. To break those bonds would require a tremendous amount of mental energy. Having used up your energy, Rama would return again. Basically, you would have to leave the stage. Obviously, the day you would be able to return is indeterminate. Hence, you will not
do it. Am I mistaken?

Dark Aurora:So you know me too well. I don't have complete...

Wahita:What is wrong, Dark Aurora?

Dark Aurora:You forced me on stage. He's waking. Under normal circumstances, I would've been able to hold on. But I can't. This is all that woman's fault. her existence makes Rama resistant.

Wahita:You mean...TIARA?

Dark Aurora:Now that you mention it...

Wahita:I do not understand. I do not understand, Dark Aurora.

Dark Aurora:You do not need to understand. But when the time comes, just take it as it comes. Reality and death... I'll eventually get to you... Be seein' ya.

[Wahita continues her conversation in heaven.]

Wahita:The emotional portion of Rama's present personality was sealed up by... ...his smile
through some method... And now with the cleared foundation of Dark Aurora's personality... In computer terms... ...it is like constructing a mock personality on top of the compatible portion of the Operating System. That is the reason Rama has no memory of his past. Those 10 or so year of memories are under the supervision of Dark Aurora. As long as Dark Aurora does not willingly hand over the memories... There is no way for Rama to know he did not even exist before the time Dark Aurora was sealed up. The present Rama's personality is an underdeveloped one which was built upon within... ...the 13 years of living in his dormitory, studying and acquiring other people's reactions. Hence, he does not know how to fully cope with sudden or emotional situations. Angel A:Are you saying that this is the reason why Rama couldn't handle his emotion? Destroying things and trusts...so he didn't realize it, did he?

Wahita:That's right. However, there is a mystery I haven't known. Tiara, the illusive persona Rama just built several months ago... It seemed to have connection with his own will to handle his Dark Aurora. This Tiara, which likes music very much...very much the same like him...

Angel B:Music...the core of Rama... Is there any probability that Rama has her to control himself upon his subconscious?

Wahita:Yes. Her existence encourages Rama's mental strength against Dark Aurora, so he's able to handle his emotion as well. In other words, Tiara...is a mental-stabilizer...
 

Angel B:Wahita, you are the one who has spent the most time with Rama so I would assume you would understand this. Were there not times when he would be psychologically unstable? For example, he would be maniacally depressive and then have sudden fits of rage...

Wahita:... Yes...

Angel A:Then his present personality is but only a temporary one?

Wahita:That is not what I am saying. The present Rama is one single personality of Dark Aurora's......hence placing Rama at a lower heirarchy. That is why when Dark Aurora is active, Rama has no recollection of it.

Angel A:Then that means he might eventually be overtaken by Dark Aurora?

Wahita:Yes, if it was only Dark Aurora...and Rama. But that does not seem to be the case. Dark Aurora only manifests when Rama's mental energy is in a weakened state. It is a mystery in itself that the lower level personality of Rama... ...has any control over the upper level personality of Dark Aurora. it is obvious that there exists a third personality. Dark Aurora calls this existence the coward. In my observation, this coward may be the fundamental personality of Rama. In other words, Dark Aurora's manifestation is not controlled by Rama... ...but is controlled by the personality known as the coward.

Angel A:...Then that means, what?

Wahita:At the same time Dark Aurora presents this coward, he also obviously fears it. From a certain point of view, this coward is the one assisting in keeping the present Rama in control. I do not know the reason why this third personality, excuse me... ...Rama's fundamental personality does not come out... If this one awakens, it will become one with Dark Aurora. ...In other words, there is a possibility that the complete original personality... ...may be restored.

Angel A:Is that for sure?

Wahita:Probably. But I do not know how to awaken it. Before I had the oppurtunity, Dark Aurora disappeared and he has been like that ever since. Basically, as long as nothing happens to
Rama that would challenge his existence, Rama can be himself. But his surroundings do not allow him that oppurtunity. It would be best for him to live in a peace that is peaceful...

Angel A:And...how about Tiara? We haven't ever seen her, right? If she really is, so...

Angel B:No, impossible! It cannot be! If Tiara is one of his personalities, there must be...

Wahita:...

Angel B:Don't tell me you're...

Wahita:I am Wahita, his true Aurora...

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WAHITA SAYS: 23:21 WIB

LAGI BACA SKRIP GAME

Ngapain sih? Hmmm, gue lagi baca skenario beberapa RPG yang skripnya bisa didapet di Internet. Seneng, karena banyak RPG yang blon gue mainin tapi gue bisa tau ceritanya. Thanks buat yang udah rajin ngetik dan posting skripnya!!! I ENVY YOU!!!

Sekarang lagi baca skrip dari Xenogears. RPG dengan teks terpanjang dan alur cerita njelimet ini udah yang kedua kalinya gue baca, pasalnya banyak kesalahan ketik yang pengen gue perbaikin, sekaligus gue pengen tau lebih mendetail lagi, soalnya nggak gampang untuk memahaminya. Konsep ketuhanan dan perwatakan yang ada di dalamnya bener2 membuat gue kasih komen: "Ada dua kemungkinan, penulisnya pasti orang jenius atau orang gila!" Sekarang gue baru sampai di bagian Fei yang berubah menjadi Id dan menghancurkan Solaris. BLAAR!!!

Gue juga baru aja selesai baca skrip Xenosaga untuk yang kedua kalinya. Wah, nggak bisa ngelupain ketegangan petualangan bersama Shion dan KOS-MOS, apalagi waktu mereka ada di kapal Elsa dan kejar2an sama Gnosis. Banyak banget entri cerita nggak jelas disini, tapi itu bikin gue jadi sabar nungguin Xenosaga Episode II. Yup, Elsa and the gang, adalah bagian paling gue sukain disini.

Gue baru aja dapet skrip dari Final Fantasy Tactics, tapi blon sempet dibaca.

RAMA SAYS: 23:19 WIB

WAHITA SAYS: MS. IRA, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU...

Hello, this is Wahita. Rama has given me a big chance to report everything directly. Here are they, and I am calling it "The Triple Report of Cuty Angel!" How about it, Ms.? The first one is about Mr. A and you, the second is Gia, and the last one is about my little master. OK, here we go!!!

1. I have detected Mr. A's existance here. Well, busy as usual, but this is where the report begins. Fortunately, that man cannot concentrate very well, so I am easily able to sneak in. Where? Of course, his feeling, not else! Just like what I thought, but I cannot tell you right away. Please wait until Dinny receive Rama's e-mail, as she will tell you directly. I'm so sorry, my master doesn't have the heart to explain it, so please forgive him. That's all I can say now, but to inform you, he will be very busy, so please try to confort him everytime you meet.

2. About this one? Well, probably Gia's animus has entirely taken over her mind, but it will be fine. My concern is: Why she doesn't try to fight him back? I am scared of the truth that he may not be a friendly form to be brought out, so Gia should realize it. Actually she's able to handle her subconscious, but the problem is about her will. At this rate, I'll tell you that she's careless. If I am a TRUE FORM, it will be very nice to take care of such 'inner-have'.

3. This is about my little master. I personally would like to say THANK YOU for helping him. You won't know, but you have done a lot. By asking for his hands, you have minimized his strength of hatred. I wish I could explain it, but unfortunately, it's quite heavy for you. Generally, he'll be an angel if his hatred is off. Even though you've overheating him, but it will be alright. I'll look after him, and don't worry about it. One more thing: This is probably asking you too much, but would you help me hand my report (about Rama's personality above) to Ms. Silver Wind? I wish she wouldn't mind to analyze it...

Well, that's it! Remember my first report, so your name will not be tarnished by him. What a blasphemy, but you have to accept it. Just ask Dinny to read my master's message and let her talk. Oh yeah, before I go, will you answer my cuty question? AM...I...CUTE...?

"This report is done under Rama's subconscious. Asking something about it will confuse him."

WAHITA SAYS: 22:43 WIB

Sabtu, 10 April 2004

HELLO AGAIN, THE GIRLZ!!!

Siang ini gue telfon Intan, salah seorang temen baik gue yang tinggal di Palembang. Ah, seneng banget rasanya bisa denger logat Palembang-nya yang kental. Dia itu salah satu anggota tim The Girlz (biasa laa, gang cewe'!) yang paling gigih dalam berjuang dan bisa SURVIVE meskipun keadaannya sangat sulit. Itu juga yang membuat gue salut. Intan itu pejuang hidup yang hebat. If she's a warrior, probably will be enlisted as an 'A' rank!

"OK deh 'bus kami'! Udah denger kabar menghebohkan itu kan? Intan, pokoknya tunggu kelanjutannya! Rama nggak akan lupa janji Rama ke Intan! Intan pasti kebagian! Eh, kalau Rama pulang nanti, jangan lupa si KAPAL SELEM ya! Rama kangen ama makanan itu! Keep fighting, Intan!!!"

RAMA SAYS: 13:29 WIB

Rabu, 7 April 2004

SILVER WIND, I ALERTLY NEED YOUR HELP...

WAHITA: "Rama, I don't mean to bother you, but would you please stop working? You've been in front of your computer for more than eight hours. If you go on, you will get sick..."

RAMA: "Wahita........."

WAHITA: "Wha...what's wrong my dear? Are you...crying again? That melancholic song of sorrow... Don't tell me you're......"

RAMA: "You're right, Wahita. This is it. My will to avenge my previous girlfriend......"

WAHITA: "Oh dear, not again... if your 'evil-have' awakens again, and your whole consciousness will surely be taken over by devilish emotion."

RAMA: "Evil...have? What do you mean?"

WAHITA: "All bad and destructive things living inside you. All human has it, good and bad side. Maybe you never realize it, but I am your 'angel-have'."

RAMA: "You mean, all good and positive things inside me... Are they...YOU!?"

WAHITA: "Exactly... Your 'evil-have' and 'angel-have' are divided into two visions. I am, your 'angel-have' that is carrying all your good is the one you call Wahita, your anima. But, even though I am part of you, I live beneath your subconscious. Why? So I can make contact with you and remain you to stop your bad behaviour you're doing. Perhaps, Allah made it to let you have an eternal friend. If you're taken over by your 'evil-have', all you want to do is destroying things, no matter who and how. Unfortunately, your 'evil-have' lives inside your consciousness, so you never realize it. Because of my position, living inside your subconscious, I could make a dialog as if you have another person in you. That's why you always realize your good, but your bad things are..."

RAMA: "Is that...? I never thought such things. But, I am totally afraid of...afraid of being taken over by my 'evil-have'. If it awakens, I absolutely cannot control myself."

WAHITA: "Yes. It awakens everytime you're pushed or annoyed. If someone do something unfair to you, or being betrayed, and that's the time for its awakening. We cannot escape the reality that your previous girlfriend has brought it to real."

RAMA: "Pu...PUT IT OFF! Can I have my memory of her washed!? I don't want to avenge her! I don't wanna be controlled by my emotion! I don't want to harm her!!!"

WAHITA: "It's impossible, my Rama. You cannot remove or delete memories, but I have a very good solution. This is what you've never done before, believe me. Now please answer: why you're so weak?"

RAMA: "Because...I have this strong 'evil-have'..."

WAHITA: "No! Don't blame it! Let me tell you, little master... You're weak because you never try to fight back your 'evil-have'. Remember what our prophet, Muhammad said? Your biggest enemy is your own 'evil-have'. So, here's your battlefield, Rama. Don't try to run away from it, because that's your eternal enemy you must fight!"

RAMA: "Is it? So, I have to destroy my 'evil-have'?"

WAHITA: "It's not that. Your 'evil-have' and I, both are actually one, and that is called, RAMA. Destroying one of them will result RAMA's death. All I mean is to stabilize both side. I'll take one good example. You must be knowing her well, she's Silver Wind..."

RAMA: "That girl that also has something I have, something that is similar to you?"

WAHITA: "PERFECTO! Once you helped her, or whoever, she could provide herself and got a very good progress. She could stabilize her heart, even though there are a lot of bad things inside. She could manage to bring a very good appearance, but she's not lying. She tries her best to be grown up. To be compared with  you, both are almost the same, but you always hide your sadness inside. You cannot force yourself to be that strong. You try to help a lot of people but forgetting your own pain."

RAMA: "I..."

WAHITA: "I don't mean to compare both of you, as everyone has the best thing inside. I also don't ask you to let her fight your 'evil-have'. None of others can fight it back, as that's your own enemy. I just want to ask you, to ask her advice. I can see a very potential skills in her, so why don't you take it as your weapon? I am sure she will be a great companion."

RAMA: "Wow! So she has it! Must have been missed from my aura's report."

WAHITA: "Ha! That's it, little master! A lot of perfect guys live here, in this earth. Sharing is good, and the last will be personal path. Get what I mean?"

RAMA: "Gotcha! So, what should I do?"

WAHITA: "First, please try not to think about your bad experience, including things that have been done by your previous girlfriend. The second, if possible, ask Silver Wind to make contact with you, person-to-person, and there you may share all your burden. I guarantee your 'evil-have won't awaken there, as she and I will slow it down. If that's not possible, just ask her if she wants to read all things about FEMMY KARIMA in this personal home page, so she'll be able to give her comment. The last one, keep getting in touch with your friends, little master!"

RAMA: "Thanks, Wahita. I'll try..."

WAHITA: "I am the cute one, so saying 'thanks' is totally a cute payment."

RAMA: "Don't START IT UP, you flirt!"

WAHITA: "Uuuhhh, I AM SCARED! Alrighty, now would you mind if I beg you to stop working? You have to take a rest for this morning's activities. You don't want to lose your day because of stupid illness, right, little master?"

RAMA: "Yeah, you're the angel. I'll put it that way. So, good night, Wahita."

WAHITA: "Oyasumi, atashi no Rama..."

RAMA SAYS: 02:32 WIB

Senin, 5 April 2004

I'VE GOT MY ENERGY MAXED OUT!!!

Wah, senengnya! Akhirnya gairah menulis kembali lagi! Hmmm, oh ya! Sebulan ini lagi asyik mainin game STREET FIGHTER II REVIVAL di Game Boy Advance. Well, buat yang hobi main game fighting dan jadi jagoan di masa lalu pasti nggak asing lagi sama gambar di atas. Yes, Ryu is my best fighter, dan yang lagi gue lawan itu adalah Takuma, jagoan rahasia di game ini yang susah banget ditemui dan dikalahkan. It's just a 2D fighting game, but it makes me sweat everytime I play that memorial game.

About the background music? It is taken from LUFIA 1, Priphea. Lagu ini tadinya jadi background artikel 'KARIMA - TO BE WITH YOU' (You know it well), tapi sekarang mendadak kangen sama suara sulingnya, jadi deh gue pasang disini. Moga2 lagunya nggak bikin ngantuk.

Oh ya, cuma mau laporan aja kalau sekarang ini gue sibuk banget, jadinya belum bisa naruh update terlalu banyak disini.

One more thing: HAPPY BIRTHDAY to FF Indonesia Online!!!

RAMA SAYS: 16:37 WIB

RAMA & FERRY = SONGWRITER & ARRANGER!

Mungkin kalian heran, siapa itu Ferry, dan kenapa judulnya gitu? Yes, as I have made an Indonesian brilliant and perfect arranger! Namanya Ferry, waktu itu dia lagi nyari album TIME & SPACE: A Tribute to Yasunori Mitsuda di mesin cari Google, dan informasi alamat personal home page ini masuk. Singkat kata, kita kenalan dan gue udah bertandang ke rumahnya kemarin. Guess what did I find? MY MUSIC'S HEAVEN!!!

Di ruangan kamar yang merangkap sebagai studio mininya, Ferry memperkenalkan dan mengajarkan gue banyak hal tentang MIDI, mulai dari definisi sampai prakteknya. Itulah saat pertama gue memegang alat yang namanya MIDI CONTROLLER, perangkat seperti keyboard musik yang dipakai untuk membuat lagu memakai PC. What's next? Ferry nunjukin beberapa karya lagunya yang membuat gue benar2 terpukau. So, MIDI is a very large world...that large?

Selanjutnya, Ferry sepakat untuk menjadi arranger yang bakal me-remix semua musik yang gue pernah tulis. WOW, AMAZING! Will I become...a composer someday?

But the very important thing is: Allah has brought me another heaven...

RAMA SAYS: 12:09 WIB

Minggu, 4 April 2004

AGAIN, REPORT FROM THE TOWER OF TRUTH...

WAHITA: "Little master! Here's the report you need! I've got all the information about your relations whose happiness is annoying."

RAMA: "Oh, really? I'll deal with it, but the Tower of Truth takes priority. Hmmm, I wonder if she'll give me an extra bonus, hehehe!"

WAHITA: "Never mind. I'll go straight to the point. First, about the bonus... What do you expect? Little master, I believe that you're not the copy of that FOOL GUY, the source of problem that troubles the owner of the Tower of Truth. To be honest with you, little master, you're different, but also the same."

RAMA: "What do you mean? Are you comparing myself to Mr. A?"

WAHITA: "Bingo! His brain is full of MONEY, and yours? Hmmm, girl...girl...girl...girl...girl...girl..."

RAMA: "Would you SHUT UP!? Don't open up here, or I'll lose the only chance to get that extra bonus!" *grumbling...grumbling*

WAHITA: "Okay... Well, about Mr. A, I have searched deeply, and this is what I am afraid of. This is about his loneliness. I have told you that he is trying to capture Ms. I's attention, but the way he is acting...it's quite silly, isn't it? Knowing all his action doesn't take effect like what he expected, he may be upset."

 RAMA: "Impossible! You mean, he wants  to attract Ms. I so that she'll tell him her feeling. Is that what you wanna say?"

 WAHITA: "Most likely. But, what should Ms. I do then?"

 RAMA: "It's good for her to stop responding for a while. I just want to know if Mr. A really loves her or...JUST WANT TO PLAY."

 WAHITA: "P...PLAY!? Could that possible?"

 RAMA: "For a famous guy like him, being upset is the bad thing, so he doesn't want it, trust me. If it does, please tell Ms. I to strengthen her heart-defense and it's better for her to search for another guy."

WAHITA: "Okay. So, is that it?"

 RAMA: "Yes, that's all."

WAHITA: "Just let me know if you need me..."

RAMA: "Thanks, Wahita. I will deal with another report, but I guess it's not necessary to display it here. The Tower of Truth takes priority, because I rea..."

WAHITA: "Really want that extra bonus, eh? Girl...girl...girl...girl...girl...girl..."

RAMA: "Would you SHUT UP!? Do it, or I'll..."

WAHITA: "Forgive me, please, little master! Don't leave me alone! Please...! Please...! PLEASE!!!" 

RAMA SAYS: 22:19 WIB

Kamis, 1 April 2004

MUSIK THE SIMS

TANYA: "Kak Rama, saya main game di PC & suka banget musiknya The Sims. Ada soundtracknya nggak sih? Kalau ada boleh minta? Buatin reviewnya juga dong! Ya udah gitu aja kak."

: "Suka main The Sims juga ya? Kalau soundtracknya nggak ada, tapi kakak punya hasil hacknya (MP3). Kirim aja alamat kamu, nanti biar bisa kakak kirim. Karena bukan soundtrack jadinya nggak dibahas di bagian soundtrack, tapi lagunya enak2 kok. Secara keseluruhan, musik2 game The Sims itu dibagi atas tiga kelompok, yaitu kontemporer piano, klasik, dan modern. Nah, di koleksi MP3 kakak sudah diurut, jadi biar enak didengar. So, I am waiting for your reply.

RAMA SAYS: 01:13 WIB